“It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else’s life with perfection.”
― The Bhagavad Gita
…the wake-up call
After I turned 20, I enrolled in an intensive Fitness Leadership course, got healthy and earned my Diploma in Personal Training. I went on to add specialty training such as Spin class, Prenatal & Postnatal Fitness and training with able-challenged populations. Here I was ready to go, educated, passionate and willing: but something wasn’t lining up. I was being turned away from jobs, potential clients closed their doors in my face and repeatedly I was told I had no experience.
I’d approached this new path athletically, with a sport conditioning train of thought. It took a few years for me to stumble across the other component of wellness; mental health. By far my biggest challenge, was getting over my own mind. Encouraged to have faith in the laws of attraction and keeping daily affirmations, I wanted to rewire myself to stay positive.
I didn’t know it at the time, but I was at the beginning of my spiritual journey. The missing piece to my new Wellness Lifestyle. Learning about martial arts and alternative healing, I found myself reading up on Qi Gong and Tai Chi. Questioning the microcosms of chi, prana, and kundalini, and still without any knowledge of how meditation came into it; I felt challenged to get a grip on it all.
It wasn’t until I was 26 going through a significant break down, that I became desperate for spirituality. For my own mental health, I found myself diving off the deep end into any alternative therapy I could benefit from.
The draw for wisdom naturally led me to India, contemplating where I could learn more about meditation. I found a school in Goa that offered courses in Traditional Tridosha Yoga and Ayurveda. It didn’t come without its challenges of course, as I’d never taken a yoga class before and wasn’t sure I could quiet my mind. But I had to show up and at least try. Constantly reminded to relax and let go, after four months, something got through. My practice became second nature as I was letting my fear drop away.
It still took me months after getting back to Canada to find my balance. Continuing to do yoga daily, I also started doing Qi Gong and EMDR to help settle my residual anxiety. Overcome with the feeling I wasn’t ready to be part of the world again yet, I agreed to do a pilgrimage across Spain. Taking it as my opportunity to integrate what my life had taught me the previous year.
The Camino de Santiago is a 780 km walk, from the south of France across to the west of Spain. Facing an internal line of questioning that came out of the background, every step became a test of faith. When the walk was finished, and I looked back on the roller coaster of my life; all I could feel was gratitude. I acknowledged the road I’d been on, and turned to face the fact it was still unfolding.
Thankful to those who guided me through it, I learned that regardless of where I was, showing up was all I could do for myself. That growing beyond pain came from having the strength to be vulnerable, to fall apart and then, to laugh… and start again.
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